If we think too much about what we want to do we might not actually do it.
I think my first garden remained a mess for 3-4 years, I thought it was a bit cottage like, messy, natural.
I was ok with that.
For a while.
Here's today's podcast
https://anchor.fm/allgardening/episodes/165-Journey-e1umtj2
Phil
Founder of All Gardening